NADIRA!isonfire 3rd.

Back on track.

2009-11-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

Daddy bought me broadband but the coverage in my room, sucks! :( My laptop can only be at this one exact place to get HSPDA or whatever you call it. Leena's room has the best coverage. I miss someone who's probably sleeping in Singapore right now. Okay, toodles!

2009-11-29T11:29:00.001+08:00

Depression is sliding in...

2009-11-29T10:29:00.001+08:00

KENAPA DALAM VIDEO CLIP ONE BUCK SHORT ADA FRANK IERO????

You sang me spanish lullabies.

2009-11-29T10:11:00.000+08:00

Your heart is not mine, it's never mine and will never be mine.

Miss Siti Zee

2009-11-29T01:51:00.001+08:00

Nadira says:
BYE SAYANG
TIDUR KETAT

Zaahira says:
bye babi
tiduk ketat ketat

Nadira says:
ZAAAAAAAA CALLED ME BABI

Zaahira says:
WEH
i nak ckp baby
i terlepas babi

pandora!

2009-11-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

My new obsession!

Pandora bracelets and I might be getting it soon.

I love Zaahira's mum for letting me design my own bracelet. Hikhik.

And I love Zaahira for letting me crash her place every single time.

I love A for always being there. :)

2009-11-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

Liyana Rushdan, I miss you lah!

Balik cepat.

bbm

2009-11-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya, readers..

welcome back, bby.

2009-11-26T10:09:00.001+08:00

You know what they say Nadira, if you let that person go.. If he comes back, a part of him will be missing.
You know what you've signed up for this time.

2009-11-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

All hail WIKIPEDIA. Now I am done with Biology. I wanna get back to my parabolas, hyperbolas and ellipse. Maths is getting sexier each day.

Results coming out soon! I still wonder why I am in matrix but.. whatevs. Just make the most of it. Tata!

2009-11-15T02:44:00.001+08:00

So, 'Thinking Of You' hits home.

What's next?

you wanted the best but it wasn't me.

2009-11-14T10:55:00.001+08:00

fmylife.com

2009-11-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

I spent few hours reading it.

ta-dah!

2009-11-12T21:31:00.001+08:00

To whoever that wants to contact Awi, here's his number

+79267496190

lights out.

2009-11-12T20:17:00.002+08:00

The weather has been a major pain because it reflects my mood. :(

Results coming out in two weeks, just before Raya Korban. Mum will probably end up slaughtering me instead of the cows. I need to get my mojo in studying back because I've been slacking even though second semester just started on Monday.

I need my comfort zone back but I ain't getting any.

The best part is, my campus has installed wireless for the whole students to use. Bad news is, I might just get kicked out soon.

In the meantime, I just wanna sit back and relax. Just see how it goes.

I can wait for the all girls outing. Should be fun. :)

To Jasmin: I hope you'll stay strong. We've known each other for more than a decade. I'm sure you'll get through this. Stick to your guns and you know that I'm here for you. Lebiuuu. <333

To Ethira who probably doesn't read this shit: I am sorry for last week.

I just love November.

2009-11-10T14:37:00.002+08:00

Today, I was in my Agama class and the ustaz was talking about the girls who wear tudung and the girls who don't. He said he will somehow deduct our behaviour marks if he sees any of us without tudung. The whole class mumbled my name and then he glared at me. FML.

2009-11-08T20:57:00.001+08:00

Second semester starts tomorrow but my heart is not here, but somewhere in North.

Zero five, zero four, zero eight.

2009-11-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

I had my first dream about you after the falling out. I trembled after seeing your name. See how much impact you've brought in my life? It's almost impossible but hey, when it comes to you.. Everything is possible.

I miss you.

I want to write a lot more but I just have to bite my tongue this time since you ignored my IM last night. I guess crying isn't going to solve anything.

Because in your eyes, I'd like to stay.

Frank Iero owns!

2009-11-06T02:42:00.002+08:00

I am watching MCR's old shit.

Honestly, MCR was way cooler back then and Bullet is still the shit! Some people might think they are gay, losers and shit but to me, they are.. Okay, were fucking good. Revenge had some awesome music in there and of course... The video reminds me of Frank Iero's hotness.

And of course, Frank Iero reminds me of someone. Don't pretend like you don't know who you are.

Anyways, Bullets and Revenge are two sick albums that I still listen to. I don't listen to Black Parade because honestly.. the album is not good.

I am looking forward for the new album, if they have one. In the mean time, I will just continue listening to Bullets.

high low.

2009-11-06T02:24:00.004+08:00

My Juliet Simms.

Since 1998

2009-11-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

Tangan aku menggeletar bila nampak satu nama ni kat MSN. Siap lutut lemah lagi lepas nampak nama tu. Petanda apa ni?

forever will never be long enough.

2009-11-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

In Loving Memory Of...

So, I miss you.

And I know it's not enough.

been trying to meet you.

2009-11-04T23:54:00.001+08:00

Zero Five, baby.
I'll just bite my tongue and hold back everything.

can't.

2009-11-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

zero five zero four zero eight

2009-11-04T01:00:00.001+08:00

I miss you so bad.

:(

2009-11-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

Dem son.

new leaf, new month.

2009-11-01T23:51:00.001+08:00

Bye October.. Hello November, please don't break my heart like October did.

I don't know if it was you, who sent the comment.. But if it was you..

I miss you, too.

I miss you quite dearly.

But if it happens not to be you.. November is just going to be another let down.

the funniest thing i've heard all day.

2009-11-01T19:54:00.003+08:00

Me: Why do you look so dark?
#1: Here's dark la, Nad.
#2: Once you go black, you can never go back.
#3: Hey Nadira.. Eh why do I look so dark here ha?
#2: Because you never go back.

there goes my hero.

2009-11-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

This year's Halloween:

Jessica Simpson vs. Polly Pocket

i wanna be a macho man

2009-10-31T17:19:00.002+08:00

After so much consideration, I am not going to All-American Rejects because I went to World Stage and Mysara has gone MIA :(

setupit

2009-10-29T04:21:00.001+08:00

I am hicupping like mad but I am to scared to go to the kitchen because I watched Sorority Row.

Don't Watch!

I hit my friend so many times because I got scared.

Stupid movie.

after four months

2009-10-29T02:08:00.000+08:00

I still care.

*

2009-10-25T01:02:00.002+08:00

I hate the fact that I actually believed in forever.
I held on my heart and told myself to never believe in forever.

if we're bad news, then you're a liar.

2009-10-24T00:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday, Nadira.

2009-10-23T13:27:00.000+08:00

I know you still remember this.
You'd be a great liar if you say you don't.

blood is thicker than water.

2009-10-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

I miss spending time with my siblings :(

dua orang bergabung tenaga

2009-10-20T19:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry Mysara sebab ambik clip rambut.
Eye contacts tu mahal okay.

Just guidelines.

2009-10-09T15:54:00.003+08:00

Don't(s)

make hatred as your last resort.
ask questions with obvious answers.
push people too hard, you might just drive them away.
put your hopes too high, you might get hurt.
trust people too much, or too little.
blame people.

Do's

be happy.
carpe diem.

part forty five hundred.

2009-10-05T17:51:00.002+08:00

Finals in less than a week and I feel like half of my brain has melted and another half is missing. I want to get an A so bad for my mathematics but integration and differentiation are not letting me! Ok bye, nak study dengan Teha.

Liyana, I already missed you :(

maybe.

2009-09-27T12:57:00.002+08:00

Because I can't stop thinking about you even though we were mean to each other.
Because I miss you so much even though we are not talking to each other.
Because I want you so bad but I have to hold on, we don't want to get hurt like we did.
Because all I wanted to say that day was yes but I've hurt you too much, I've had heart aches more than my heart can take.
Because I love you even though we're different.

We never poured our love to the wrong people, we just changed.

2009-09-26T09:24:00.000+08:00

Rindu sebenarnya tapi entah apa yang menghalang.

2009-09-25T22:27:00.002+08:00

You vented out lies.

tamed.

2009-09-24T10:59:00.001+08:00

Hari Raya paling bosan sebab semua buat hal sendiri dan aku kena menghadap buku sebab finals nak dekat.

Ok lah, Selamat Hari Raya.

you're the only light i ever saw.

2009-09-16T21:01:00.003+08:00

I think I've been lying to myself because I thought I'd be okay but I guess I spoke too soon. I tried to act cool, like I didn't care about you when deep down.. I wanted to know if you've eaten or not, if you're okay or not. I just wanted to know how your day was but at the end of the day, it was a pretentious lie that I made to cover up my own sorrow. I've had my fair share of sleepless nights too and too many things happened at once. It was beyond my control. I was pressured and did not know any better on how to handle our situation.

Blame my reckless mouth. Probably you won't be reading this and honestly, I am half hoping that you wouldn't. I just want what's best for you because you got hurt, I got hurt and I think neither of us wants that anymore. I know I don't want to get hurt. I shall let you walk away now. Maybe it's for the best? Or maybe, we'll find our way back. (Soon, I hope) Or maybe, it's a permanent and you won't remember it.

I think this will be the last post regarding us.

Keep me posted on your life. Ily.

unhearted

2009-09-16T19:44:00.002+08:00

Things that I miss.

Home cooked meals.
Buka puasa with my family and friends.
Sahur with mama.
Bazaar Ampang Jaya, walaupun kuih sana tak sedap langsung.
Bunny
Main mercun sampai badan bau busuk.
Mr. A.

I will definitely remember this Ramadhan because..

Roommates taught me not to sahur but I will always end up sahuring since I cannot stop whining in lecture class.
Sahur at 4 am.
Makan nasi ayam sepuluh hari berturut-turut.
Makan popiah kering setiap hari.
Sahur maggi sedap.

They just announced that we can go back tomorrow instead on Friday! I am gonna pack my stuff now. I miss KL, I miss my mum. Haven't seen her for two weeks. :( Okay, mengada.

Bye anak gemuk.

2009-09-16T19:06:00.001+08:00

I'll come back stronger than a powered up batman.

Hellhole

2009-09-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

I can be happier.

sidewalks.

2009-09-11T17:15:00.002+08:00

I died during Biology test.
Served me right because I did not wake up early this morning and skipped math lecture. I want to go back so bad this week because I miss my mum's home cooked meals. Today we have this small gathering at my biology teacher's house and I do not feel like going because my mum said this

Me: Adik nak balik mama. Asha balik jugak.
Mama: Adik boleh balik tapi tak boleh balik naik ktm, bas or kawan ambik.
Me: Habis tu, mama nak ambik?
Mama: Tak nak. Duduk situ sampai next week.

I just love my mum.

I am craving for apple pie and unagi. ;)

hugs and kisses.

2009-09-08T12:45:00.004+08:00

No, of course you did not crush me!
You just destroyed me, darling.

birthday

2009-09-04T00:53:00.002+08:00

Happy Legal, Jasmin. :)
My good friend of 10 years.
Thank you for being there for me and thank you for making your house as my second house. I am glad that we're not closer than we were. I miss the time when we used to play dress up at your old house with Iya. And the time when we made golf course for your dad. =) Good times, good times.
May you have a good one this year.
I love you!

p/s: gambar kenot post. internet sini slow macam zaahira bila orang bagi joke.

away.

2009-09-04T00:49:00.001+08:00

On hiatus. Keep on sending your secrets.

unpretty.

2009-08-31T13:40:00.001+08:00

I have nothing against anyone.
I just don't care anymore.

undiscovered.

2009-08-31T01:03:00.003+08:00

Dear you,

For the past weeks, I have been trying to make you happy. We have been having our ups and downs but mostly downs, these days. One minute we're happy, the next we're on top of our lungs. I wish we had what we had a year ago. We were happy, right? You buat I happy, I buat you happy. When I am down, you'd make me happy. When you're down, I'd sing pre school songs. What happened to us? How did we lose all the sparks. How did we become so distant.. And most of all, how did I lose you? I am not saying that I've lost you, but.. I've lost a part of you. The one that I am longed for.

You are not one to be blamed. I screwed up, big time. Again and again. I think you are not going to be here anymore because you are already tired and as you stated there.. You feel nothing. I faham.

We were doing good the last few days. I know we were doing good because I didn't cry for a week over us. We did not fight, we always talk to each other. Even though we are not together but I am still happy because you are close to me. No one else but me. So, I was happy. I just need you to know one thing, I never take you for granted. Not for a second because you mean the whole world to me. I thought I rock your world but I am just a tiny person that cannot make you happy even how hard I try.

I am scared.
Scared of losing you.
Scared of not having you.
Scared of watching you with other girls.
Scared of disappearing.
Scared of watching you walk away.
Scared of you.

I am sorry.
I love you a great deal.

i want to tell you a secret.

2009-08-29T18:05:00.005+08:00

Let's play a game.
This is how it works.
Click on the comment link and write either these five

1. Your secret.
2. Things you wish you could tell to someone. (You can put their name if you want)
3. What do you feel today.
4. Anything you want to say.
5. Anything that you want to tell me.

Either these three or all three or anything you want. Anonymously, of course. Don't leave your link or name.

Post it @ this entry. I will approve it. Unless if you leave your name or anything. DON'T LEAVE YOUR NAME.

Thanks :)

presenting Luscious

2009-08-29T02:16:00.002+08:00

My sister's group first video. :)

sbu vs. cbn

2009-08-28T23:57:00.004+08:00

Siapa kata sbu dengan cbn tak boleh ngam? Since 1999, yo.
We're tighter than your mamah spandex.

She wants my hair.

I want her hair!

We're as tight as your mum's spandex.

Mimin's work of art =)

Baby, i am outside of your window.

puasa #01

2009-08-26T15:56:00.002+08:00

I know that I am four days late, but..
Selamat Berpuasa to all Muslims. ;)

I love how you make me feel.

coke lemon

2009-08-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

My roommates have gone bonkers when they forced me to play raya songs. :)

We're listening to M.Nasir - Satu Hari Di Hari Raya.

They are planning to decorate our room with ketupat, bright lights and err, mercun. I am off to ChemistryLand. Bye loves.

mahira marhainy

2009-08-24T22:07:00.003+08:00

Mahira ada kawan baru, nama dia Nadira jugak. Patut la dia lupakan I. Dia ada pengganti I rupanya. Ini lah janji you ye Mahira untuk bersama dengan I selama-lamanya. Setelah 12 tahun, you campak I sebab ada bestfriend baru nama Nadira jugak. I dah tak sayang you dah! Kita putus sekarang jugak.

You kata you nak sayang I sampai bila-bila. SAMPAI HATI YOU. I pergi Negeri Sembilan baru 3 bulan, you dah ada pengganti ye.

Okay la, I nak tidur.

Mahira, you jangan buat I menangis tak sudah. Sudah, I nak tidur. Mahira, you owe me lunch date this Friday since you can't fast.

oopp

2009-08-24T01:38:00.002+08:00

You know what's relaxing?
Shopping.
I went shopping yesterday with mama and met Zaahira there. It was relaxing because I got things that I wanted and I did not buy any blacks. :) Zaahira is proud of me.

white houses.

2009-08-23T21:08:00.003+08:00

Lepas buka puasa

Mama: Mama nak buka puasa kat masjid esok, akak nak ikut tak?
Me: Adik kena balik esok jugak ke? Malas lah.
Mama: Jangan nak mengada. Akak nak ikut tak?
Akak: Akak buka dengan bapak esok ma..
Me: Mama buka la dengan bapak.
Mama: Kamu dah gila?
Me: What aunty doesn't know... (looks at akak)
Akak: (sambung) Won't hurt her...
Mama: HOI!

this post is really personal, please respect it.

2009-08-21T22:10:00.004+08:00

Warning: Entri ini tiada niat untuk menyinggung perasaan sesiapa atau membuka pekung di dada sendiri. Ini apa yang aku pendam dari dulu.

This is going to be very personal and please don't question anything because this is what I have been feeling ever since I entered matrix. Please jangan pandang serong atau apa-apa sebab entri ni memang akan menunjukkan keburukkan saya sedikit sebanyak.

Sebelum saya masuk matriks, memang saya mengaku.. saya selalu lupa solat. Kadang-kadang mama tanya saya dah solat ke belum tapi saya kata dah walaupun saya tak buat lagi. Kalau mama outstation, memang tak sentuh telekung la. Sometimes, boleh kira berapa kali saya solat dalam sebulan and seriously, I am never proud of it. Memang saya mengaku, rasa serabut gila bila tak solat langsung. Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak nak solat, tapi lepas terleka sikit, terus lupa. Dulu, saya ada sepupu yang memang kuat solat, selalu bangun solat hajat, tahajud semua and I sort of laughed at him. I was laughing at something that is right.

Things changed after I entered matrix.

90% orang dekat sana memang religious gila. Jenis yang pergi surau time azan, dengar kuliah subuh, puasa sunat without fail.. Roommates saya pula budak sekolah agama. The first few days saya kat sana, memang rasa berat gila sebab tak biasa dengan environment baru. Semua memang akan kejutkan pukul 6 dan solat subuh sama-sama. I never experienced anything like that before. Malam-malam bila dorang baca al-Quran, saya duduk tepi.. baca buku tapi dalam hati asyik-asyik cakap, sumpah dorang rajin gila.

The main point of this entry is, I am jealous of people who have strong faith. Memang saya mengaku, saya pakai tudung memang bersebab. Satu, almost all of the girls there wear tudung. Dua, cikgu dekat sana semua pakai tudung. Tiga, saya malas nak jaga rambut. All the wrong reasons. I adore those people who wear tudung willingly, without any reasons. I am always jealous of them. I wonder sometimes, am I going to be like that too and if yes, when is it? Ada satu malam, hati tergerak nak tengok buku panduan solat yang mama bagi. Lepas berhabuk baru la saya bukak. Malam tu baru saya sedar banyak benda saya tak tahu. I was ashamed of myself.

Semenjak tu, saya memang tak gelakkan perempuan pakai tudung labuh, lelaki pakai kopiah pergi kuliah dan lain lain. People like them deserve respect more than us. Their faith is stronger than ours. And I adore the girls who wear tudung willingly. They sacrifised something that is really precious to be closer to God. People like us, we have to think it over and over again to do it while those girls, it took them a night to change everything. I respect those girls. I really do. Sekarang, semua benda betul, disalahkan. Semua benda salah, dibetulkan. We poison our minds. Tapi saya tak cakap la semua yang nampak alim tu memang baik gila, ada jugak perangai lagi teruk dari perempuan tak bertudung.

The point is, I am jealous of those who have strong faith.

P/S: Mama, if mama terjumpa entri ni.. Mintak maaf banyak banyak in advance. Erk.

wtf?

2009-08-20T23:42:00.003+08:00

Used to be so hot but now he looks like Santa Clause. Rachel loves Santa Clause.
That's Iero, Frank Iero.

2009-08-20T14:39:00.003+08:00

Suara I sekarang sangat sexy macam Ella, cuma suara I lebih sexy dari suara dia.

Anak suparman yang hilang.

2009-08-20T10:42:00.000+08:00

re-offender

2009-08-20T08:48:00.001+08:00

For once, I wish I could be the girl doing all the running.. Not the chasing.

loving you is cherry pie.

2009-08-19T22:05:00.001+08:00

I am back home til Sunday because matriks was nice to me and decided to give me a week holiday... (Half true)

I miss Azmi.

when you're all argumentative.

2009-08-16T11:31:00.002+08:00

And yeah I am sorry I was late,
but I missed the train,
And the traffic was a state,
And I can't arsed to carry on in this debate,
That reoccurs when you say I don't care,
But of course I do, yet I clearly do.
- Mardy Bum

oh so happy.

2009-08-16T01:06:00.002+08:00

Best things that happened to me today, well.. yesterday.

- I got mosh pit ticket for World Stage.
- Some chick shoved me way to the front and I was at the front row.
- I shook hands with Martin Johnson.
- Tyson Ritter threw his guitar pick at me.
- Martin Johnson threw his guitar pick at me.
- Doug Robb threw his guitar pick at me.

I am happy.

I need some sleep. BYE!

just had to use this picture.

2009-08-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

Thank you for sneaking me out at nights when I needed therapy. My partner-in-crime when it comes to food and shopping. Thank you for just being there for me when I needed you. We did not get along well when we were living under one roof but I'm glad things changed after that. Despite of your huge ego of telling me that you don't love me at ALL! I know you do. (hehe) I know how much you hate it when I try to kiss your cheek to show how much I love you.. So, as your birthday present.. I AM GONNA KISS YOUR FACEEEE AKAK! Sisterly love~

Happy 24th Birthday, Big Sis!

you wanted the best but it wasn't me.

2009-08-14T18:24:00.002+08:00

I am so in love with myself now for getting Mosh ticket for World Stage to-morrow! =D

You have no idea how excited I am right now because I just need a therapy and I am getting one tomorrow!!!! I WANT TO SEE NICK WHEELER. OKTHXBAI.

hello there tyson ritter.

2009-08-14T12:07:00.002+08:00

Here's a happy post.

I know how to use the coin-operated washing machine! I used it with Leena last night at.. err 11.45 because we needed to do some laundry. I was all jakun when Leena showed me the way to use it since I always wash my clothes using my hands, my soft soft hands. -_-

And oh, I had text from 9.30 PM til 11.00 PM yesterday. Awesome shiz huh?

To happen tomorrow: WORLD STAGE!

say hello.

2009-08-14T12:05:00.003+08:00

Getting all the signs; saying that I should stop.
How can you stop holding on to something or someone that makes you feel so good?

I fucking need a therapy.
Farim and I need a bloody therapy.

Disappointing, I tell you.

you used to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade.

2009-08-12T20:26:00.005+08:00

It shouldn't be this hard,
It shouldn't hurt this bad,
As a matter of fact, it's not even right to think of it.

Always and forever.

How can I be optimistic about it when I'm always wrong when I think something good will happen. My bad aura is turning my roommates down because I used to be all happy until two weeks ago. I don't any reasons to smile anymore. I just want to be happy but only one thing can make me happy and it's something I cannot have.

I'm sorry for all the emo posts, I am just not happy.

I held on to people won't change. I held on to that, for too long which is killing me both on the outside and inside. I've been asking signs on this matter but all I am getting is bad signs. I seriously can't be an optimist right now. It's all the opposite of good.

Just like what I thought, you can never hold on to forever.

thirdloveletter

2009-08-12T09:43:00.002+08:00

Someday, I know you will come back but how long do I have to wait til that day comes?

It's hard to keep on pretending that I am all happy when it's always been broken inside. I see this is pointless because both of us are not doing fine. At least I know I am. I want to keep you near me but the new us is dragging us apart. It cannot be fixed as I can see it.

I just want the old you back because that's who I missed. I am trying to adapt to the new you but it just keeps on getting harder each other because bit by bit I am losing you.

Hope.

are you scared, too?

2009-08-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

First time aku rasa budak lelaki kat matriks aku ni agak kurang ajar dan biadap gila hari ni. Nak tegur tu tengok la diri sendiri.. Sendiri banyak salah, nak tunjuk tunjuk salah orang lain. Muka kalau macam Heath Ledger, boleh la aku terima teguran kau yang sangat tak berasas. Tapi.. haram. Kan dah kena marah tadi, buat aku bengang je hari ni. -_-

When I was in my tutorial class just now, a boy said this..

"Aku tak suka budak perempuan dari KL sebab semua macam snobs. Kalau aku cari girlfriend, aku takkan cari budak KL."

Satu, aku rasa lega sebab dia memang menggatal dan suka ayat semua perempuan. Cikgu siap kata dia penjual minyak (Maksud: suka ayat perempuan or something like that)
Dua, aku rasa dia stereotype semua perempuan benda sama sebab girlfriend dia tinggalkan dia. HAHA.
Tiga.. ahh, kesimpulannya.. Semua budak perempuan dalam class aku yang dari KL dan Selangor bengang dekat dia.

Aku dah muak kat sini, nak balik. Nak balik rumah laaaa. Dah la, nak makan maggi.

2009-08-07T18:31:00.000+08:00

Bila masa aku nak imun dengan perasaan ni?

gila.

2009-08-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

Dah dua minggu, tapi aku rasa macam lebih dari sebulan.

Kosong je bangun pagi, malam lagi la. Tak payah cerita macam mana sebab lagi teruk rasa kosong tu. Nasib baik boleh main internet, kalau tak.. Aku dah separuh gila.

HI BYE

2009-08-04T17:40:00.001+08:00

MATRIKS CEPAT LA TUTUP. IKUT LA MATRIKS LAIN TU, ISH. BYE.

youkillme.

2009-08-02T08:29:00.002+08:00

I am off to Negeri Sembilan, will be back in two weeks time. ♥♥♥

Take care, loves.

good times.

2009-08-01T21:44:00.009+08:00

I FOOKING MISS ALL OF THIS. :(
Random pictures from 2005 til 2009.

ik mis je

2009-08-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

How could that be done by such a smiling sweetheart?

Had a pretty rough day today. I'm drained. Sickly tired.

Sister came to cheer me up but ended me cheering her up. -_-

therapy.

2009-07-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

Goodbye, sunrise.

2009-07-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

It will never be easy for me, I didn't want this to happen but it did. I can't tell you how much I appreciate the littlest things you've done for me. Thank you for always saving me.

I guess both of us tried to work things out but this time, neither of us have the strength to endure the pain and go through it anymore. Whatever that's meant to be will find its' way. I will hold on to that. Thank you for going through think and thin with me, thank you for staying for as long as your heart could. Thank you for everything you've done. Ily. Always have and always will.

So long, my love.

I will be there for you, no matter what.

of broken hearts.

2009-07-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

Lights out,
I found out,
My falling star,
Goodbye to
sunrises,
There's no more you and I.

- Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

happy hour.

2009-07-24T16:28:00.001+08:00

Will be off to Tioman for the weekend ;)

Hope I will get back without looking like Usain Bolt, of however you spell his name.

xx

man boobs

2009-07-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

I went to this one hair saloon today to get my hair done and my hairdresser has two very distracting boobs because.. She's a freaking guy.

I am so not a pervert but when she was cutting my hair, her or his shirt was unbuttoned down to his/her chest which I found very disturbing. Mum had to close her eyes because she thought it was too obscene but okay.. This just shows how disturbed my mind is right now.

ANYWAYS, Mysara and I just had this brilliant idea! We'll be writing new songs and it's a perfect timing since I'll be in Tioman for the weekend and she'll be in another different country for the whole bloody month.. I'm super excited for it!

I will post new pictures when I feel less disturbed by the guy/girl's boobs. TA!

momentary thing.

2009-07-23T01:28:00.005+08:00

I am half glad that I'll be in Tioman for the weekend.

With all the changes and things that have been happening around me, I need to take a break. A real one.

Screw changes.

I've been very passive lately and I didn't know that it'd affect me this bad. The changes are horrendous. I am disappointed but who am I to judge? It's not my field or anything and I don't want to jinx it because it's a bloody curse when you say you hate that certain something but will end up doing it much later on. The world will be rolling back to you. It's karma.

But I'm glad that today's proven to me that not everything has to change.

Via: icanread

Screw it.

as told by ginger

2009-07-23T00:50:00.001+08:00

She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.

She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.

She longed to be a bird.
That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.

She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.

Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.

Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.

The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.

She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...

And then she was gone.

pigs.

2009-07-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

I found out that UiTM Penang is closed for a week due to swine flu. How cool is that?

Matriks won't tolerate with shit like that.

Proof: Two girls from my matrix got H1N1 and classes still continued like normal and no one told us about it. We found out from the girl's room mates.

Eee.

Sleepless mondays.

2009-07-22T14:15:00.005+08:00

The ones that I hung out during primary school and secondary school.
The ones that played hide and seek during primary two.
The ones that won't change.
Thank you, loves.

1998 - 2009

2009-07-22T00:36:00.001+08:00

I just found out that KMNS got second for KAKOM ;)

Oh triple oh!

2009-07-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Day three, assignments remain untouched.

My sister painted my nails with neon colours. Barf?

That's how we look like after not seeing each other for almost a month

Nothing blog worthy, so I am off. Tata!

Congratulations to Sabrina. :) We'll celebrate when we get back!

heartless.

2009-07-18T16:12:00.002+08:00

I know I should be happy for you right now, but I couldn't find a way to do so.
You finally got one thing that you've been wanting.
I should be happy for you.
But I'm sorry that I can't.
I'll be gone now.
Our timing couldn't be any good.

This made me smile.

2009-07-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

Sid: It's a boy!
Diego: That's its tail.
Sid: It's a girl!

It's cool that we didn't say goodbye.
It's fine that you didn't even bother to see me.
It doesn't bother me at all that I was one of the last person to know.
It's just awesome. Fucking awesome.

I ain't freaking, I ain'tt faking this.

2009-07-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

I am on semester break for two weeks ;)
I did not slay mid terms test but all's good.
Really happy with the outcome of my room and..
my plurk won't be dead since I will be online whenever I am free!
My assignments are shitload heavy but I will try not to procrastinate.
Gotta say that I did not make the wrong decision. :)

Good luck to Sabrinaeyerrr =D

purpled.

2009-06-26T19:14:00.005+08:00

It was purple day for some of us :)

To sum it up, I miss someone who's probably in his blankie trying to sweat his fever off. Get well soon, baby! One day before birthday pun, demam kan. :( Tonight we'll talk okay? Tolong la carikan Bunny nanti...

The funniest shit:

Our english teacher has the funniest accent, he sound like a french man but actually la kan, he cannot pronounce R. He will end up talking like this.

Cikgu X: Nadigha, bila nak pass up assignment? Kalau kita daghabkan ini, kita dapat apa?

Ferra: Tghee teacher.

Cikgu X: Logaghitheem ni tak susah ye.

And he wrote this on my friend's paper.

"Semoga Teha cantik dengan segala yang baik"

Rest In Peace, Mikaeel Jackson. You will always be remembered and we will be moonwalking everywhere starting from now.

You wouldn't like that, no.

2009-06-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

Only one question,

Why?

i want to eat burger.

2009-06-23T17:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it's tiring when other people gets all the credit on the things that you do, no? It's crazy enough that people actually do that to you but when other people keep on reminding you how awesome the things that other people actually did (When you did 87% of it), you will get pissed off too. Right?

I am so ge-ram right now because of it. It will hurt your emotion and I am now, emotionally drained. Being the last/second last/third last/fourth last to know hurts even more. Don't you think so?

Just ranting.

You had me calling for you, honey.

2009-06-23T17:22:00.003+08:00

I miss home and I won't be coming back til 17th of July and I will rot here til then because I have mid terms coming up in 19 days! They actually have a huge ass reminder on our door just to remind us how close we are to mid terms.

Things are different now, I am adapting to my environment but I don't think I will ever be okay due to things that have been happening around me. That's just, balls. I don't have any blog worthy things to update but I just found out days ago that Mysara will be leaving this Friday. Double balls.

I can't tell if things are going to be different but if that's your promise, I will take it. The only thing that I can tell is, I am not always on your mind.